Up All Night
SHUTTER*
I closed my eyes. Pitch black. At first I saw nothing but within minutes I could see and feel all the features of your face. I saw your smile, I felt our hands lock. Doorbells rang, kisses were passionate and eyes showed signs of happiness and sadness at the same time. I saw all of this in the dark. But as I heard your voice in my ear, I realized the shutter was open and those weren't soft whispers...you were far away saying you missed me. The blinds opened slowly, the sun shined through and your grip loosened slowly....
I FORGOT ABOUT.....
Wow....I saw them tonight. I haven't seen them in so long I forgot what they looked like. My heart skipped a beat, fluttered....it was cold...windy, I shuttered but not because of the weather, because words couldn't be uttered. My eyes were glazed, gazed...seems as though I was hexed...body was in a trance, hazed. Arms got heavy, bags consumed them. Still couldn't move...move Jill move...thats what my head said. How could the words on this page be red when I looked up at the prettiest blue sky tonight? I saw stars tonight. Had I looked up in the sky every night and just seen clear skies lit by moonlight? Or had they been there all along but they were invisible to me? I know that the Sun is the largest star and the closest to Earth...but Wikipedia has a definition that became metaphoric to me "Other stars are visible from Earth during the night when they are not outshone by the Sun or blocked by atmospheric phenomena" Interesting...I shed a tear because he came back...and before he did I couldn't see the stars, how could something so far away and so high above be the sign of his love?...had we been outshining each other with other people who we thought were better because they seemed larger than life like the Sun? And as I get teary eyed, I laugh because yeah the sun is great and all but its annoying as hell, it blinds you, its so hot that people die from heat strokes, so no we can't live without the Sun but we couldn't survive without the stars either....they're peaceful, they work so well together, and beautiful they are....however nobody can get close to the sun, so why do we adore it so...amazing huh? The most beautiful part of that Large Star is when it sets....and our Sun has set on those before US and now we can be peaceful STARS and shine....
Can't Form Em'
Abracadabra....mine gone, but thoughts long. Scattered, messy, lungs heavy. Stress, incomplete orgasmic compactness. Driving me insane, body in a trance, dazed...eyes hazed. Can't Form Em'...they're words, derived from Greek vocab...this white page is so drab. Pronunciation, Enunciation, Concentration....Formulation of those Alpha Beta Theta's won't rise to conquer this illegal war of drunken notions....not even a swig of the Ever-Clear so it seems i'm sober, can't be because these words aren't clear ever. Put em together merge a sentence, a phrase. Here goes nothin 1-2-3 begin...The End...I couldn't form em, I thought I was sober started writing backwards over and over...page still blank so words stay as is...ERASED.
